just another day in my dark city

well my life as i know it is very dark every now and then the sun sun will shed some daylight into my dark gloomy abyss but if to much sunlight should shed itself upon me there is always a dark cloud to follow immediately. I wish for one day i could have sunlight all day sunlight meaning a happy day a glorious day but so far in my life there has never been a day like that its as if i live in a land of night and to have sun is to have a solar eclipse once you miss it well damn i guess you miss it ! Well i have always lived i guess you can say a roller coaster it has had its ups but mostly downs a lot of loops and downward spirals i would like to say i am happy but sometimes i find myself angry and depressed i have had some bad years bad things happen to me by bad people ! I think alot of that has affected me in so many ways good and bad and i try to make the best of it all but for now i strive to survive in this dark and infinite abyss !!!!