kandee the make-up artist: Please Read this is VERY URGENT!!! ONly 3 weeks to...

kandee the make-up artist: Please Read this is VERY URGENT!!! ONly 3 weeks to...: "Imagine you only have 3 weeks left to live.... every minute counts.... please help me save Kristie's life! She needs us to post this video ..."

Truth ???

is there really 100% truth in love and relationships.... can a relationship really survive on love and nothing more i really dont think so i think love and relationships are really made up of 50% love and the other percentage made up of little white lies and and hidden secrets things that are best hidden or lied about for the greater good....... I think. Well today i learned something new about my husband i walked in on it actually something hes been hiding now i wonder for how long and is it better that i never knew or should he have just put it out in the open ???????? ugh love is so hard sometimes i feel everything should just ne out in the open instead of hidden or else eventually i might find out some lies about him that i should have learned long ago and feel he is not what i thought he was like opening pandoras box opening up all the evil in someone all the truths he hid with lies......... well whatever it is i dont know that i want to know or continue living the way we do with love and white lies to keep our relationship safe..................... we will never know. and i know that no marriage is perfect but why does it have to be so hard sometimes? Well i guess for now we will have to see where love leads us maybe to bigger better things or perhaps into a black infinite abyss...........................................

WHAT ONCE WAS IS NO MORE

I FIND THAT THE ONE CONSTATN IN MY LIFE IS PEOPLE COMING AND GOING I HAVE SEEN SO MANY PEOPLE WALK INTO MY LIFE AND THEN JUST DISAPPEAR OUT OF MY LIFE I FEEL AS IF I AM SOME SORT OF DEFFECTIVE WHY CANT PEOPLE STAY WHY DO THEY LEAVE ? I WILL NEVER KNOW WELL MY RECENT LOSS IS NOT A DEATH BUT I GUESS THEY JUST ERASE ME FROM THERE MEMORY ! AND IT WAS NOT JUST SOMEONE THAT I COULD FORGET ABOUT IS MY OWN FAMILY ALL BECAUSE OF ONE BOY ! I HAVE LOST MY AUNT & COUSINS AND MY BEST FRIEND ALSO ! I GUESS IT JUST REALLY SUCKS THAT THIS HAD TO HAPPEN THE ONE THAT I THOUGT I COULD ALWAYS RELY ON AND CRY WITH WILL BE THERE NO MORE AND I WILL ONCE AGAIN LEFT IN MY DARK ABYSS TO SUFFER ALONE ITS AS IF I AM ALMOST OUT OF THIS ABYSS AND I FALL BACK TO THE BOTTOM AND I HAVE TO START AGAIN WITH SOMEONE NEW LEARN TO TRUST AGAIN ONLY TO BE PUSHED OVER AND OVER AGAIN
BUT I HAVE LEARNED NOW THAT MY TRUE FRIENDS HAVE BEEN THERE THROUGH IT ALL THEY HAVE SEEN THE BEST AND THE VER WORST OF ME !!! SO FOR THAT I THANK THEM FOR HELPING ME ! MAYBE ONE DAY THEY CAN FINALLY SET ME FREE OF BEING THE KEEPER THE WARDEN OF THIS DEEP DARK ABYSS

just another day in my dark city

well my life as i know it is very dark every now and then the sun sun will shed some daylight into my dark gloomy abyss but if to much sunlight should shed itself upon me there is always a dark cloud to follow immediately. I wish for one day i could have sunlight all day sunlight meaning a happy day a glorious day but so far in my life there has never been a day like that its as if i live in a land of night and to have sun is to have a solar eclipse once you miss it well damn i guess you miss it ! Well i have always lived i guess you can say a roller coaster it has had its ups but mostly downs a lot of loops and downward spirals i would like to say i am happy but sometimes i find myself angry and depressed i have had some bad years bad things happen to me by bad people ! I think alot of that has affected me in so many ways good and bad and i try to make the best of it all but for now i strive to survive in this dark and infinite abyss !!!!