WHAT ONCE WAS IS NO MORE

I FIND THAT THE ONE CONSTATN IN MY LIFE IS PEOPLE COMING AND GOING I HAVE SEEN SO MANY PEOPLE WALK INTO MY LIFE AND THEN JUST DISAPPEAR OUT OF MY LIFE I FEEL AS IF I AM SOME SORT OF DEFFECTIVE WHY CANT PEOPLE STAY WHY DO THEY LEAVE ? I WILL NEVER KNOW WELL MY RECENT LOSS IS NOT A DEATH BUT I GUESS THEY JUST ERASE ME FROM THERE MEMORY ! AND IT WAS NOT JUST SOMEONE THAT I COULD FORGET ABOUT IS MY OWN FAMILY ALL BECAUSE OF ONE BOY ! I HAVE LOST MY AUNT & COUSINS AND MY BEST FRIEND ALSO ! I GUESS IT JUST REALLY SUCKS THAT THIS HAD TO HAPPEN THE ONE THAT I THOUGT I COULD ALWAYS RELY ON AND CRY WITH WILL BE THERE NO MORE AND I WILL ONCE AGAIN LEFT IN MY DARK ABYSS TO SUFFER ALONE ITS AS IF I AM ALMOST OUT OF THIS ABYSS AND I FALL BACK TO THE BOTTOM AND I HAVE TO START AGAIN WITH SOMEONE NEW LEARN TO TRUST AGAIN ONLY TO BE PUSHED OVER AND OVER AGAIN
BUT I HAVE LEARNED NOW THAT MY TRUE FRIENDS HAVE BEEN THERE THROUGH IT ALL THEY HAVE SEEN THE BEST AND THE VER WORST OF ME !!! SO FOR THAT I THANK THEM FOR HELPING ME ! MAYBE ONE DAY THEY CAN FINALLY SET ME FREE OF BEING THE KEEPER THE WARDEN OF THIS DEEP DARK ABYSS